The Private Space of M.Y.W.D

LOSER!!!

2009-07-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

ok.. Apparently some loser try to use my e-mail and want to spoilt my reputation.. Whoever u r, please wake up ur fxxcking idea.. dun be a loser and get a life!!!!

Something is going wrong?!

2009-07-09T17:46:00.000-07:00

I feel something is going wrong but seriously I dunno what went wrong.. My instinct just tell me that I have to be more careful about what's happening ard me..

Well... Is it really my instinct or I'm just too paranoid? I need someone to enlighten me!!

Some little quote my colleague send me~~

2009-03-12T07:45:00.000-07:00

Greater Happiness

If by renouncing a lesser happiness

one may realize a greater happiness,

let the wise one renounce the lesser,

having regard for the greater.

Dhammapada 290

We do not rise above our present "happiness" because we do not clearly see what is the greater happiness, and are thus unwilling to put in effort to attain it.

Every Gesture of Love

When you kiss and or hug, or show any gesture of love, do it properly and fully each time. Such that if it turns out to be the last time, you won't regret not having put your heart into it. Even if it was not the last time, at the end of your life, you would be able to look back and be glad that you were always wholehearted throughout your life. Are there any gestures of love you have been "owing" someone? This might be the last time you have a chance to express your love.

Regret

2009-03-10T17:56:00.000-07:00

Finally I learnt something again.. I just find that I'm so immature at this age, was too naive and think this world is just perfect..

When it's not something funny, do not crack a joke about it.. because it might lead to a serious consequences.. I experienced it myself.. In the past I always have a mindset of "It's just a joke, nvm de la.. not as if it's something real" because everyone interpret things different.. A might think it's a joke but B might think it's a truth and C might simply dun care about it..

I know I need to learn to be more sensible, I'm not young anymore and it's time for me to be more mature in my thinking and the things I do..

I regretted for the joke, it's a big price for me to pay after the joke..

I will treasure the chance that I was given, to make full use of it and show that the chance is not given for nothing..

I'll show what I said is truth and it's a assurance..

"I have many regrets, and I'm sure everyone does. The stupid things you do, you regret...if you have any sense....And if you don't regret them, maybe you're stupid."

2009-03-03T05:35:00.001-08:00

What makes "Love" such a beautiful thing in this world?

Simply because the feeling;
your partner gave you;
that someone will be there for you no matter what happen;
that there are only 2 of u in this world;
getting the support from your partner;
of having someone to share you happiness & sadness;
that someone will give you a little surprise to make you happy;
that someone will cheer you up and give you the encouragement when you are down;

It's simply because of the simple little thing that makes a relationship so wonderful.. =)

I feel there is something changing..
I don't know why.. Maybe I just think too much lately..

I hate this feeling but I don't know how to open up the topic..

I just hope this period will over soon..

I am too possesive, I know it clearly..
I know it might make you feel uncomfortable and don't have your own space..
I just want to have what I have now..
I really treasure you.. a lot, a lot.. more than you know..

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.."

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married

2009-03-03T05:24:00.000-08:00

Treasure the one you love while you still can.. Don't wait till the last minute and you will regret..

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Working Hard~~

2008-11-20T08:34:00.000-08:00

I'm back for an update again.. =)

Well as far as I know, whta I posted in the previous post will not have direct impact to me but indirectly I'll have more workload. Not only myself but also for the others who are still safe under the umbrella.. hahaha... no choice.. as long as I still can get my pay every month I have to work hard and even harder to fight through this downtime and hopefully it will be over soon.. =)

Nothing much changes to my life.. sleep, work and eat.. keep repeating day after day.. well.. tat's life.. I'm waiting for the weekend to come.. hahah.. time to go shop but too bad is not to shop for myself but hv to shop for 3 birthday presents.. >.< a lot right? but no choice lo, still hv to get the present..

Christmas is coming pretty soon and I'm clearing my leave in 2 weeks time.. haha.. time to go for a holiday break and relax myself!! =) WEE!!!!

"Everyman's life is a fairy tale written by God's fingers."

Scary News

2008-11-17T08:07:00.000-08:00

Once I reach home 2day and tune on the TV just nice it's the time to watch Channel U 11pm news.. During the highlight of the news, a scary new came across the screen and I was like OMG!!! I think a lot of ppl shld hv heard about this news le ba.. For those who dunno wat news I'm talking abt, please click here to read the news..

Well.. I can't do anything about the decision.. What I can do now is keep on performing on my job and position and hopefully this econ storm will be over very soon and everything will back to normal..

Anyway so far everything is quite good and I'm contented with what I have now.. =)

"Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."

23rd Birthday!!

2008-11-11T20:51:00.000-08:00

Alright.. time to clear the spider web in my blog.. hahha.. it's been quite awhile since I last update my blog.. :p I was quite busy la so dun really hv time to update..

My birthday just over less than 1 week and I'm 1 year older.. ntg good or bad ba.. just that I need to plan more for my future and earn more money to achieve my goals.. haha..

The 2 days birthday chalet was great.. I'm very thankful to everyone who came down to my chalet and especially those who are helping me out to prepare for the food.. Specially acknowledge Sha, Lee Hui, Serene, Sidah's bf, Ming Yang and Noel.. Without the help of you all I think I'll be dying prepare my own chalet.. hahaha..

Thanks for all the present from each and everyone of u.. really paiseh to receive such expensive present from u all.. the most important thing is not the value of the present, it's the sincerity.. I'm really happy to have you guys as my colleagues and friends.. You all did really make my days.. =)

Once again.. Thank you everyone!!!

"The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you"

Life's Story

2008-10-20T18:03:00.000-07:00

Life can seem ungrateful and not always kind.

Life can pull at your heartstrings and play with your mind…

Life can be blissful and happy and free…

Life can put beauty in the things that you see…

Life can place challenges right at your feet…

Life can make good of the hardships we meet…

Life can overwhelm you and make your head spin…

Life can reward those determined to win…

Life can be hurtful and not always fair…

Life can surround you with people who care…

Life clearly does offer its Up and its Downs…

Life’s days can bring you both smiles and frowns…

Life teaches us to take the good with the bad…

Life is a mixture of happy and sad…

So…

Take the Life that you have and give it your best…

Think positive, be happy let God do the rest…

Take the challenges that life has laid at your feet…

Take pride and be thankful for each one you meet…

To yourself give forgiveness if you stumble and fall…

Take each day that is dealt you and give it your all…

Take the love that you’re given and return it with care…

Have faith that when needed it will always be there…

Take time to find the beauty in the things that you see…

Take life’s simple pleasures let them set your heart free…

The idea here is simply to even the score…

As you are met and faced with Life’s Tug of War

19.10.2008

2008-10-19T06:38:00.001-07:00

Finally I'm survived from the 7 days of work.. overall I still can take it ba.. physically ok but mentally quite tired.. tired because hv to keep answering to cm's queries on all the issues especially during this period of time.

Was at Titus's birthday chalet last nite.. although I was quite tired due to the work but somehow I enjoyed myself during the chalet.. played all the funny funny game, tak boleh tahan la... hhaha.. laugh until my face going to cramped le.. :p I can't wait for my bday chalet to come to enjoy with all my friends.. =)

anyway after the 7-working day I still hv to continue for another 5 days until I can go for my off day.. counting down and wish for the day to come asap.. haha.. really need some time for myself beside work lo..

Actually my mind is quite messy and confused now after reading the blog entry.. well.. I dunno how to explain my feeling now..

"Your intellect may be confused, but your emotions will never lie to you."

13 Oct 2008

2008-10-12T20:36:00.000-07:00

alright.. I think I'm quite emotinally stable now.. everything still goes on as per normal.. =)

as usual work is still so busy and I nearly got activated to go back to work on Sat bcos of some stupid rumour.. shall not talk abt it and I dun think I can openly discuss abt it.. hahah.. anyway for those who like to spread rumour please wake up la.. wat u can gain from spreading rumours?? nothing better to do right?? >.<

anyway seems like there is a lot of bday celebration going on this month.. seems like every week there will be a bday party.. Eugene's, Kelvin's, Alvin's, Gary's and Titus's bday party.. Fainted.. so many to go and my wallet gonna break le.. hahaha.. anyway I also busy preparing for my own chalet.. hahaha.. invitation will be out by this week ba.. =) details can be found there..

Well.. I gonna prepare and go work now.. take care everyone!! =)

"Happiness is the only sanction of life; where happiness fails, existence remains a mad and lamentable experiment."

Goal of life

2008-10-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

Out of sudden I dunno y.. I'm so lost.. totally.. I can't see my future..

WHY??

I can always try to motivate ppl but when it comes to my mine..

I can't do anything.. cos I dunno how to help myself..

Maybe I'm just emo emo ba.. hopefully everything will be alright when I open my eyes again..

"Need" & "Want"

2008-10-06T19:13:00.000-07:00

Normally ppl thinks that there isn't much different when they use the word "need" and "want".. although physically we can say that this 2 words will lead to the same action but mentally it will be a totally different reaction.

Let me use working as an example.. When you say you "need" to go work, it means that you dun really wan to go work but out of no choice u need to be there.. mentally, the drive for u to work will be much more lesser and u will feel very bored to go work.. What happen when you say you "want" to go work? The drive is there and the work is no longer a work cause that is the thing u wan to do and u will do it happily..

This theory do not only apply on your work, but also can be applied in ur life, studies, relationship, and everything that happen in your life everyday..

So how do we change it from "need" to "want"? Actually it's very simple, just twist ur mindset from a negative side to a positive side, everything will be better =) think of the positive way and your life will be easier and better..

"Life is short. Be swift to love! Make haste to be kind!"

Night out for Hoon Yong Heng

2008-10-02T10:34:00.000-07:00

haha.. It's been so long since I went out to chill with my friends or colleagues.. =)

Actually I was quite busy 2day cos there are a lot of customer instruction for me to take.. kinda stress as in Bishan I have to take more banking product compare to credit card.. no choice, in order to upgrade myself I have to start to learn more..

after work went out wit Sharon and Adele.. and together we are Hoon (Sharon) Yong (me) Heng (Adele).. hahhaa.. went to Cafe Cartel for dinner.. and can u believe it? this is the 4th time I had cafe cartel within 7 days.. -.-" lolx..

after dinner we went to a ktv pub nearby.. the place is quite nice and juz nice 2day we r the only table there.. hahah.. so we can sing like crazy and as if we are taking over the whole place.. :p anyway thanks for hoon and heng for the night out and I'm really looking forward for the next outing to fish the prawn.. hahha..

"Life is an ugly, awful place to not have a best friend."

Life's Great

2008-09-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hey all.. I'm back for a post again.. =)

Actually I'm quite contented with my life and what I have for the time being.. everything is great for me, maybe I finally learnt how to appreciate things that I have now ba.. I have a stable job, my lovely life, family, friends and everything..

Honestly human have to learn how to appreciate what they have.. becos there is nothing good or bad in this world.. the definition of "good" and "bad" is purely based on personal view or the "rules"...

Let me use raining day as an example..

People that stay at home and do nothing will think that raining day is a good day, cos they can enjoy their sleep in such nice weather.. But wat abt others view? construction worker & contractor? That will be a very bad day for them, especially if they are rushing for deadline.. once it start to rain, the progress will be slow down a lot.. So is raining day good or bad? It's hard to say.. =) I have another story to share.. hope you all enjoy reading the story..

"Good or bad, hard to say.."

Once upon a time, there was a king. The king liked one of his followers very much because he was very wise and always gave verycuseful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was injured and the wound was getting worse. He asked the follower if that was a bad sign. The follower said, Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end, the finger of the king was too bad that had to be cut.

The king asked the follower again if that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the same answer, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in the jungle. He got excited when he was on the chase of a deer. Deeper and deeper he went inside the jungle. In the end he found himself lost in the jungle. To make thing worse, he got captured by the native people lived inside the jungle.

They wanted to sacrifice him to their god. But when they noticed that the king had one finger short, they released him immediately as he was not a perfect man anymore and not suitable for sacrifice. The king managed to get back to his palace after all. And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger, he could have been killed by the native people.

He ordered to release the follower, and apologized to him. But to the king amaze, the follower was not mad at him at all. Instead, the follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.

'Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would have brought the follower along to the jungle. If thenative found that the king was not suitable, they would have used the follower. Again, the quote 'Good or bad, hard tosay' stands.

The moral of the story -

Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad.Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life. Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

If you can understand this, you will find life much easier. =)

"Good or bad? Hard to say"

Busy life

2008-09-24T09:44:00.000-07:00

hmm.. I'm super tired and busy for this week.. there are so many things that need to be done and more to go for the audit month which is on Oct.. till now I still hv quite a lot of things which is not done yet.. I'm so gonna die.. -.-"

I had been working for the whole day for the past few days.. physically I'm still ok but I'm mentally tired and stress.. there r so many things for me to settle.. haiz.. too late to say anything just hope I could finish it asap ba..

anyway went for my haircut 2day cos cannot tahan my hair anymore.. once my hair is long I'll be super pek cek.. haha.. I also dunno y.. after my work I met up with Wilson, Imran, Ming Yang, Terry and his fren for dinner at Marina Square.. I was quite happy to go out with everyone as I was very busy wif work and dun really hv time to go out wif them recently..

I hv to hang on and be strong to make sure I'm strong enough to fight throught the audit month.. =) I just wish for the best ba.. Please pray for me hor.. :p

"There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure."

Audit month

2008-09-22T08:08:00.000-07:00

Busy busy busy.. haiz.. I'm so busy with work this week.. hopefully I could settle my stuff asap..

18.09.2008

2008-09-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

wake up early in the morning for training at Macdonald House... In the end waited in the meeting room for more than 30 minutes then got the info that the training is cancelled suddenly.. I was like "WTH" lo.. wake up early in the morning for nothing.. That's still ok.. the worse thing is hv to "discuss" all the quiz with an incomplete question.. =.="

Everything went smoothly in the afternoon and I had my lunch at subway... hhaa.. things happen in the evening.. The system are trying to play wif me.. suddenly all my system cannot be opened and there is customer waiting for me to check their account.. lucky that young boy never make so much noise.. haha.. however, later part another uncle came in and thanks to the system I was scolded by customer la!! WTH!!! details are not convenient to discuss in public but only thing I can say is I kena scolded by customer jia lak jia lak.. I nearly had a breakdown lo.. In the end went out to the branch to relax for 10 minutes and I'm back to normal!!

Finally the day is over.. although there are so many things happen 2day but luckily I still can go through as 1 piece.. haha.. no choice.. when u wanna be a service staff u hv to learn how to "ren"..

"People are never so near playing the fool as when they think themselves wise."

US Economics Crisis?!

2008-09-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

so sian lo.. now everything I heard is abt economic of US.. so many ppl are worry that it will affect their investment and insurance policy.. I really cannot understand all this ppl lo.. watched the news just now and there are ppl go to the AIA building to cancel their policy 7 in the morning lo.. crazy or wat?! the company and ppl won't run away de la.. relax k?

Anyway I dun really bother so much abt this issue but just worried that a lot of gan jiong spiders will rush into my branch to ask abt this.. Tolong ar.. please dun ask me those stupid question.. hahha..

Well.. dun wanna talk abt all that le ba.. I was soooooooooooo hungry at during work 2day.. dunno y.. I had my meal as usual but when ard 7pm and stomach start to protest le.. initially plan to cook noodle and just make it simple for my dinner.. then when I reach home I saw some leftover rice in the fridge so I decided to fried rice.. hahah.. here's the pic.. looks nice right? :p

there is another training going on 2moro... need to get some beauty sleep le.. hahaha..

"All of us do not have equal talent, but all of us should have an equal opportunity to develop our talents."

Awards Presentation Night

2008-09-16T09:13:00.000-07:00

I just back home from the award presentation night... This time round I received the awards for "Citi Singapore Quality Excellence Award" which is given out twice a year.. =) I'm quite happy that I was selected to received this award as across the whole Citi in Singapore, there are only 141 receipient for the award.. =)

So far this is the 3rd award I got from the company.. I was not trying to show off anything, but I'm happy that the company recognise what I contributed to the company unlike my previous company.. 3 words to describe "piece of sxxt".. lolx.. I'm not trying to shoot anyone but this is only what I feel.. I'm just too happy to get this job 1 year ago.. =)

For our team, there are 5 SBs and 1 SRM that received the award. (From left: Alison, Jasmine, Mark, Yen Hui (my manager), Elaine, myself & Sidah)

Congrats to everyone!!

Anyway after dinner was out with Yi Kai, Xiao Hui & liting for dinner and KTV.. It's been so long since we last went out together for KTV.. hehe.. It was quite fun but we end the outing early as all of us hv to work the next day.. So hopefully we could have another outing soon ba.. =)

"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."

14.09.2008

2008-09-14T10:10:00.000-07:00

hahha.. It's been few days since I last update my blog.. I dun hv any access to my lappy for the past few days that's y never update anything lo..

anyway nothing much happen this week ba..

Fri after my work then went to look for Wilson for dinner then after that meet Imran and others to club.. never really drink much cos dunno wat to drink?? lolx.. wat a lame excuse right? hahah.. anyway jut dun really feel like drinking ba..

On Sat itself, I don't know wat exactly happen to me and I have a serious mood swing.. Can't even work properly.. luckily I have Thi Ri to help me out, if not I sure tio a lot of complaint de lo.. haha.. Thanks Thi Ri!!! =) afterall the day still pass smoothly and nothing much happen.. =)

Just now went out to shop with Wilson.. initially I wanted to get a pair of shoes or maybe some shirt but sadly I didn't get anything lo!! sian.. However Wilson got himself a fcuk t-shirt and a Topshop shirt.. so sad la.. ARGH!! Dunno y everytime when I go shopping will end up buying nothing.. WHY?! sian.. anyway good la, can help me save money also.. lolx..

well.. 2moro will be the start of a new week.. I wish everyone and myself have a good new week ahead and happy working/studying!! hugs

"There is only one success—to be able to spend your life in your own way."

Family

2008-09-09T07:56:00.000-07:00

Just a sharing from my old old blog.. =) enjoy reading..

I ran into a stranger as he passed by, "Oh excuse me please" was my reply. He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.We went on our way and we said goodbye.
But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, young and old. Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still. When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.

"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken. While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said, "While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door. Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise, you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes." By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;

"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"

He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree. I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.." I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway." I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

FAMILY

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed, don't you think?

So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

I dunno~~

2008-09-08T20:08:00.000-07:00

hmm... something happen in my family which give me a lot of internal pressure.. Although I might give the the feeling of "I don't care" but actually I worried a lot just that I don't know how to express my feeling so I just keep it all inside..

I still look as normal on the surface but deep inside my heart I really dunno what I can do.. No 1 can see the pain I have inside my heart cos I also care abt it as any other ppl.. Why this thing happen in my family? haiz.. I really dunno.. Anyway don't ask me wat happen, I'll never tell anyone..

Anyway back to my job.. everything was great, just that now I have to slowly hand over things to other as I'll be transfer to another branch again.. hhaha.. quite fun also la.. lolx.. Have to work with different new ppl again..

My life is great except the thing that happen in my family.. I'm happy and contented with what I have now.. hugs..

"Life is like a sewer. What you get out of it depends on what you put into it."

The brand new start!!

2008-09-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hahha.. It's time for me to start a brand new blog!! I had been so lost for nearly half a year and finally I realise what exactly happen in my life and I'm moving on!! Thanks to everyone that stay with me and giving me all the support and care.. hugs

Life is great now.. =) I'm very happy with my current job.. Honestly I really hv to thank the manager of my previous job, if not because of her, I'll still stuck inside the small little "perfect" company (this is what she said) and facing the computer everyday..

So far I'm quite happy with my achievement of my job.. Had been working 1 year here and I received 3 individual awards and 1 team award.. hahha..

Anyway too long never post anything blog le.. so a bit dunno what to write here.. anyway this is only the first post will update it whenever I could..

Take care everyone..

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."